Author: Rubyletters

Accident Victim

I sincerely hope that this letter finds you alive and well. I have to admit that on some level I have my doubt as to if you actually will be OK, but for all our sakes I’m going to try and believe beyond reason that you will be just fine.

As usual my virtue of patience sort of flew out the window when the traffic was just standing still…again! It woke me up from my normal morning stupor in a very unpleasant and irritating way. By the time I had phoned my boss, postponed my meeting and discovered that i only moved about 20m in the last half an hour I was completely awake and ready to pounce on the individual responsible for the problem. I of course thought that there was a police road block, in peak traffic……the police just looove doing that! I never expected to come round the bend to find your poor broken body lying on a stretcher, lights flashing, sirens screaming and destruction all around.

My hands became clammy and my heart started to race at a thousand miles an hour. The breath I so easily take for granted became short, fast and laboured. My head started reeling and horror images were paraded around in my memory. Tears instantaneously filled my eyes, and the make-up so carefully applied this morning turned into a mess. Only the waterproof mascara proved its worth.

Your pain and suffering had brought up images so vividly that i had to stop for a second. Unable to peel my eyes away from the horror in front of me without really seeing what was there. I was seeing a different accident scene, feeling the pain so sharply again in my body that for a second i forgot myself and reached out to rub the injured leg.

Then, as i passed the world started to revolve around it’s axis again. The colours shifted back into their usual bright self and the sirens faded into the background. And as my heart started pacing its self again everything just jumped back into place around me.

Sir, I hope you survived that horror. And i sincerely hope that one day, when all of the hurt and the nightmares and bitterness and the “why”questions pass that you will find the peace I have. That you will be grateful for everyday. For every person. That the fact that all metal detectors yell and cause chaos whenever you pass will cause you to smile. And that you will remember that for all practical reasons you shouldn’t be here.

Yours gratefully

Ruby

My Friend

This letter took a little bit more thought than the previous two. I had to really sit down and think on how I want to word this. After much thought the best that i could come up with comes down to this: I applaud you!

We have been through some pretty rough times you and I. Most of which took place this year. You used to be like a brother to me, and you were the one friend i knew i could trust with my life……or so i thought anyway. As it turns out, you are human after all. Just a fighter and an idiot like the rest of us. Trying to survive, and like the rest of us, you have one flaw. At the end of the day, even though we may be the most selfless beings alive, when it comes down to the rough and tumble……….we fight for self preservation, and neighbourly love is forgotten.

You broke my heart my friend, and sent me reeling into the unknown chasm of distrust and paranoia. Even as i tried to fix my two feet on solid earth again after a bitter journey and reached out to you to try and work things out my hand was slapped away and my kind and loving words were shoved in my face.

You have taught me a bitter lesson which I still wish could have gone unlearned………..a lesson in the reality of the evilness of man. At the end of the day…none of us are good. Not me, not you and certainly not the people around us who just watched us destroy our treasure and instead of helping us to pick up the pieces, they scattered them….way beyond our reach.

I’ve helped myself out of the chasm…..not at the same place i tried before, but a bit further up….somewhere between mercy and forgiveness. And since then I have visited both these places repeatedly. And i think i finally made good……..I have been shown mercy and therefore i will show you mercy. But i have also been forgiven and therefore who am i to stand in judgement of what you did?

But yesterday you phoned. The first time in months. I have to admit that I had my doubts. The impulse to just tell you I was busy and would be unable to accommodate you in my busy schedule loomed……but i closed my eyes and pressed on. Invited you for not only the coffee you had requested but for a meal too.

You came to me humbled by you experiences in the last couple of months. An apology readily on your lips but also in your heart. My friend, I applaud you for your step! you have saved our friendship and made me believe that there might be hope for us humans after all. What the future holds for the two of us i do not know. We might never again be as close as we used to be. We may never be able to repair the damage done. But we have something……we have hope:-)

I sincerely hope that the courage you have shown will help ease your troubled mind and educate your searching soul.

Your friend

Ruby

Dear superhottie at the stop street

Thank you so much for brightening up my day with your radiant smile and bedroom eyes. it was a tad embarrassing and I feel stupid to admit that at that time of the morning I’m just not quite awake yet and do silly things….but at least my stupidity awarded me an excuse to stare at you for just a second longer.

It’s amazing how some one’s face just lights up when smile’s at them….even if the other person did something really stupid. I’m sure that you are under the impression that the reason i did not cross the stop street when it was my turn was because i was staring at you…..well, this is not entirely true.

I am not a morning person…as in not at all. I’m usually just awake enough to not drive like a complete idiot, distinguish red from green and avoid colliding into other cars……that’s it! give me anything more and you’ll find me completely confused, at least until about half past 8.

So this morning i approached the stop street same as every morning. I watched you approach your stop to my left….and for some odd reason, somewhere in my mind, i had this stupid notion that it was a two way stop, and you had no need to stop and should just carry on going.

But being the gorgeous law abiding citizen that you are……you stopped! My mind hit a blank and Ruby was confused, as in totally. This of course caused me to sorta stare at you….see!!! i didn’t stare at you because you were super hot…..i stared at you because you confused me:-p

The confusion did however only last for about 2 seconds. The moment i burst out laughing at my own stupidity, you flashed me that traffic stopping smile, waved and and waited for me to cross, hooting just to remind me to enjoy my day…………..you sir, made my day:-)

So dear Mister Superhottie at the stop street…..this letter is actually a thank you note. Thank you for smiling at the half asleep hot girl, and thank you for still being a gentleman.

Regards

Ruby

Dear Blogger

So today I have finally taken the step and opened a blogger account. I am so incredibly proud of myself for finally doing something that i’ve been threatening to do for a while.

I have to admit though that the experience was not quite as easy and enjoyable as i once thought. I was expecting the editing of my template to be quick easy and straight forward, but for some odd reason all the editing i did is not shown on my blog, and quite frankly i find that irretating. I have checked and rechecked my my font settings and they are shown as I have made them, but the moment i open my blog it still shows the standard blogger black template.

But lets not spend my entire first letter complaining about something I can not change, for the time being anyway. I’m sure between the two of us we’ll be able to work something out. And since it does not mean the end of the world I will not break my pretty little head about it.

I would however like to thank you for welcoming me with open arms into your quite large but closeknit family, which seems to grow each day. I hope that we’ll be spending plenty of time together in the months to come, and that on some level the people who are meant to read these letters will find them.

Yours respectfully

Ruby