Dear Drunk Driver

Tonight at 10 minutes to midnight it will be exactly 5 years since that fateful night.  5 years….wow…I can’t believe it.  At times it feel like it couldn’t be that long…at other times i could swear the accident happened a lifetime ago.

I don’t know where you are in life, and I’m grateful that I don’t have any contact with you.  But sometimes i wonder if you ever think about that night.  If you ever even realised how much damage you caused.  Have you ever thought about it and wanted to apologize for it? As I’m sitting here writing this I realise that you never did.  Not even once.  You never apologized.  Not for the act and not for the consequences.  But I’ve forgiven you regardless.  I refuse to spend my life bearing a grudge, I’ll be the only one suffering if i did.

Sometimes i can’t help but wonder how different my life would have been.  And then my mind starts wandering towards the what ifs and the whys and the why Me’s.  But then i start looking at my life now.  Yes, at the time i was convinced you had ruined my life.  Being practically bedridden for two months was no joke.  The constant headaches that I’ll probably have for the rest of my life, my metal ankle, the scars, the fact that my wrist isn’t nearly as strong as it used to be, nightmares and a court case that went on forever those were and still are tough. 

But i look at my life now and i realise that i have so many blessings in the form of people, things, realisations and relationships.  And then i wonder how much of this i would have missed if I hadn’t been in the accident.  The fact that i emerged from that accident with my life was a miracle in its self…and for that I’m eternally grateful.  It made me a more aware, more grateful, more ‘wanting to live’ kind of person. 

For a very long time talking/writing/thinking about the accident kind of brought my heart to my throat.  But as i sit here today I realise that is a thing of the past.  Yes, i still have nightmares sometimes and the scars, pain and blaring metal detectors at airports will always be a reminder.  But you know….reminders of how different things could have been and how lucky I am to be alive have now been filed into the positive rather than the negative side of my brain.

I hope you are happy.  I hope you have found peace, and i hope you have become more responsible in time.

Regards
Ruby

Dear Afrihost

Ohmigosh!!!! I won! i won! i won! *super big grin*

So Afrihost is relaunching their brand and they had a competition 🙂  The prizes were 2 x 64GB 3G & Wifi iPads and 3 x iPhone 4 ‘s. I never win anything, so wasn’t expecting anything to come of it.  So great was my surprise when on Monday afternoon my twitter stream started filling up with messages of congratulations.  After much confusion i moseyed on over to the website to find this:

Yep, that’s my name you see there…..i circled it for you, just in case you missed it:) Not only that, but later in the week i also won 10GB of prepaid data from Afrihost, which’ll come in very handy once I’ve installed the ADSL line into my new place.

But enough of the technical stuff…i think I’m in love with my little iPad.  It arrived at my office on Friday afternoon…and I’ve been in geek heaven ever since:) See the grin when it was delivered?

I’ve been petrified of scratching it, so today i went on a mission to find a suitable cover.  And trust me, this was a mission.  Since it hasn’t officially been launched here yet, accessories are scarce..but i did finally discover a couple of covers I liked, and immediately settled on this incredibly gorgeous and glam red, notebook like cover…i love it!

Thank you once again to Afrihost for this awesome prize.  I couldn’t have been happier if i tried:)

Love
Ruby
xxxxx

Dear Being Brazen

As always, my current addictions posts are addressed to you, as you were the inspiration behind them. So here follows a little bit of who i am and what makes me tick:) At the moment there are a couple of things in life that i feel i can’t live without. They are as follows:

1.  My darling iPhone 3GS
Yes, I’m still very much in love and addicted to my phone.  This was recently affirmed when i had to do a review on an HTC Hero for GirlGuides…I couldn’t WAIT to get back to using my iPhone….in fact, I’m so bad that I ended up carrying both phones with me throughout.

2.  Long hot baths
I haven’t had the luxury of these for a few years as my previous home only had a shower.  I’ve rediscovered my love of long hot baths since moving into my new home.  After a long stressful day i can’t wait to get home and take a bath:)

3.  Blackadder
I saw a couple of episodes a few years ago, but never had the chance to see Blackadder in it’s entirety.  A friend recently gave me seasons 1 to 5 on loan…I’m hooked! I love British humor:)

4.  My Latin Lounge CD
la la la la….such music *dreamy smile*

5.  Peanut butter M&M’s
Yoh! A friend of mine recently visited the US and as a favour to me he agreed to bring me some peanut butter M&M’s.  Now, if you know me at all you’ll know that this is probably one of my all time favourites and these days you can’t get then in South Africa.  Little did i know he would bring me back 2.5kg in total *grin*.  But don’t worry…I’ve been eating them in small quantities only…don’t want to end up looking like i have a small African country as an ass.

Now tell me….what are your current addictions?

Love
Ruby
xxxxx

Dear Pink Hair Girl

I recently found this little bit of fluff on your blog and thought that i could totally use it here:) so here goes:)

1.  What is your signature colour?
Uuuuuhmmmm….this is difficult. I have so many different colours.  But I’ll have to say…..Olive green, orange and Ruby red:)

2.  Your most embarrassing moment?
oh goodness…..since we all know i have chronic foot in mouth disease there are so very many of these…and generally i try and forget about them.  I’m sure everyone who knows me can come up with quite a few…you’re more than welcome to remind me in the comments:P

3.  Would you ever get anything else pierced, except for your ears.
I considered getting my tongue pierced when i was younger….but to be honest…nope, probably not

4.  Are you a social butterfly or a homebody?
Hmmmm…..all though I’d like to think I’m pretty balanced i suppose i lean way more towards being a social butterfly. I’m almost ALWAYS busy when I’m not working…but i do enjoy a night at home every now and again, just to get focused again:)

5.  Are you done having babies or do you want more?
Well, as far as i know i haven’t even started!

6.  Are you loyal to your hair stylist or do you try out every salon in town?
I LOVE my hair stylist! she’s got personality and spunk and somehow always manages to do exactly what i want but with some added zing to it.  Sadly, she’s very popular and getting an appointment on a Saturday is nearly impossible if you don’t book months in advance.  I recently tried out a new hair stylist closer to my new home and one where i can get a same day appointment and they’re open till 8pm at night.  I was nervous as all hell and pretty much wanted to die…also, i felt pretty guilty about going to somebody else.  But i have to say I was impressed.  Not only was the girl super nice, she took initiative, but not too much, asked questions to ensure that we were on the same page and she did a super job:) Now at least i have an alternative to my regular hair stylist should i need it:)

7.  How many times have you moved in your life?
Wow! I’ve moved 11 times! 7 of those moves have been in the last 10 years….insanity i tell you

8.  If you could plan your dream vacation with just you and your love, where would it be?
hmmm…once again i can think of many answers to this question.  Firstly i think I’d like to go all alone to a little wood cabin in the mountains…doesn’t that sound absolutely divine?  Or somewhere in a forest maybe.
Another choice here would definitely be doing a world tour backpack style *gets excited at the thought*.

Love
Ruby
xxxxx

Dear Readers

As per previous posts I’ve done, inspired by Being Brazen, I will answer a few random questions, then you will also answer them in my comments section.  I always have so much fun doing these, and you guys participate so nicely I figured they will now become a regular feature on this here blog:)

I am currently listening to……my ‘Today’ play list, right now MUTEMATH is playing..totally love them:)

I hate…….not getting closure on things

Anything……is possible…Believe it!

 Today…..is a good day

Things that make me feel all warm and fuzzy and content……knowing I’m loved…seeing a beautiful sunrise or sunset….experiencing nature in it’s most perfect form……listening to good music…sharing a beautiful view with someone that is special to me

 Sometimes…dressing up for formal type party and looking all pretty is a great pick-me-up

 True beauty…..can not be measured in what you look like

I am….super incredibly ridiculously excited about my upcoming Cape Town trip:) #RubyComesToCapeTown

I am currently reading……’Hide and Seek’ by James Patterson. I’ve recently rediscovered the bliss that reading brings.  I love reading and used to spend days doing it, these days i sadly don’t have the time.  I’ve promised myself that I’d read at least 2 or 3 pages every night before i go to bed…it helps my brain to focus on something other than my work and studies:)

Right! so now it’s your turn…go answer them..pretty pretty please:)

Love
Ruby
xxxx