I’ve been trying to sort this out for myself for days. But I’ve finally admitted defeat. It’s just not possible for me to think this through logically….I’m not looking at it in an objective manner….or maybe I am, but I’m trying to convince myself that I’m not…oh dear, there i go again…*sigh*
Being a little bit of a control freak, I hate feeling uncertain or not knowing what is going on around me. I don’t like feeling vulnerable and unsure of myself. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.
But then there are times when feeling vulnerable, unsure and confused brings about feelings of excitement, anticipation and an eagerness to discover……all of which i do enjoy. I’m trying my best to balance them out at the moment, but I’m not being very successful😦
Feeling excited and vulnerable at the same time could mean one of two things. 1. It’s a recipe for disaster or 2. It means something beautiful. Gosh i hate feeling like this, and at the same time, i don’t…*sigh*
Good luck with trying to figure that one out!