Author: Rubyletters

Dear Louisa

I suspect I’m a bit late to the party, but I only saw your post now:) Thank you so much for giving me this:

I HAD to giggle at your nomination…it’s scarily erm…accurate:P

So according to your blog post I now have to tell you 7 things about me that you don’t know….this becomes harder every time I have to do it…I’m not all that interesting and I’ve done a whole bunch of similar posts, so I’ve had to really dig deep.

1.  I don’t discuss emotional personal issues easily.  I prefer just shoving them down deep and dealing with them by myself.  I’ve learned that I’m far more comfortable being somebody else’s support structure and shoulder to cry on than being the one needing support.  Because of this I’ve often been accused of being secretive and mysterious…But it’s who I am. I don’t share easily.

2.  I’m just a tad obsessed about decorating my office in pink and white and black lace.  The plan was formulated the moment i started looking for a new home where I would have a dedicated office…the execution thereof has only started recently.

3.  Recently I spent about a week reconsidering my chosen profession and all the choices available to me due to a rather scary event.  I always knew my job to be dangerous, but being confronted like that makes you question many things.  However…I love what I do, and not to sound presumptuous, but I’m good at it and I’m refusing to let third parties’ actions spoil that for me.  #CSIRuby is here to stay:)

4.  My life would be incomplete without peanut butter M&M’s (Ok, you probably knew that already…but I had to slip it in there)

5.  I’ve lost roughly 7kg’s in the last 3 months without even trying to.  Stress is an amazing weight loss tool 😛

6.  Despite not having done ballet in like forever and a year ago I can still put my feet behind my head

7.  I’ve broken my nose……more than once..

Right…I’m supposed to nominate 5 – 10 other bloggers, but I think I’m going to cheat just a little bit.  I don’t like nominating people for things.  So, if you’re reading this letter and you haven’t done this one yet….please consider yourself nominated and take part:)

Here’s what you have to do:
1. Include the award logo in your post or on your blog
2. Say 7 random things about yourself that the readers don’t know yet
3.  Nominate 5 – 10 other blogs you usually follow
4. Let the nominees know that they are nominated & include their blog-links
5. Link the person who nominated you

Love
Ruby
xxxx

 

#26of365

My poor right hand has really been in the wars today. That red mark is where I burnt myself while cooking dinner tonight and it’s all wrapped up in an attempt to let it rest and get rid of the inflammation. Can’t wait till I have enough of a gap to have that stupid bone growth removed.

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#25of365

Because special people have teas named after them:) tonight I brewed some of the Ruby tea I got last year as a gift. It almost tastes like hot , velvety Turkish delight…but I suspect that’s because it contains (amongst other things) rose hip…and Turkish delight in South Africa is mostly Rose flavored

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My dearest Ouma

Today, as I was scratching around in my study looking for something I needed, I came upon the Christmas card that I received from you this last Christmas….your last Christmas.  It was so unexpected, and I was caught completely off guard.  Hello instant tears.  I always miss you, and I think of you every day….but today was so much worse.  I just collapsed in a little heap on the floor and wept….mourned the fact that you will never see my new home….mourned the fact that you will never meet your first great-grandson, Baby B…mourned the fact that you will never see me getting married..mourned the fact that I will never share a moment of hysterical laughter with you again.   It felt like my heart broke into a million different pieces all over again.
And of course misery loves company.  Suddenly I was crying for a whole bunch of other reasons too…you know…since I had already ruined my make up and since I was already all sniffly and since the post cry headache had already set in I might as well make use of the opportunity to be completely and utterly miserable.  It’s dumb. And I always end up feeling emotionally over sensitive afterwards…like I’m precariously balancing on a very VERY thin ledge of sanity.  I develop verbal diarrhea and talk non-stop about the stupidest things to the people close to me as if it will somehow stop me from thinking too hard and falling off the edge.  Sometimes I feel sorry for my friends….but i’m eternally grateful that they put up with my little quirks.  I’m not sure how I’d survive without them.

Anyway…I’m babbling again.  I just wanted to tell you that I really miss you.  The practical part of me is so grateful that you are no longer suffering and that the memories we have of you are fond and amazing and happy.  But there is a part of me that just aches so much when I remember that you are no longer here.  And sometimes being human and being emotional really sucks:/  Just so you know, I’m OK now, and I seem to be over my little wobble (Listening to Angry music as per the BFF’s advice, kinda helped)  But I wanted you to know that even though you are no longer here you will never be forgotten.

Love
Ruby
xxxx